Saturday, April 28, 2007

supposed to have a cls outing yesterday but coz it was raining so we went to eat at marina square instead of marina bay. lol. talked a lot while having dinner and we found out some secrets. lol. nice talk thou. oh ya. had gems yesterday and it was horrible to be in the same cls as elaine and liming. coz they'll keep laughing which will make me laugh den the teacher was like warning us not to laugh anymore. if not disturb other ppl who are trying to record their voice. lol. and i saved mine in my thumbdrive. just listened to it. and i found out that my voice is veri not nice!! lol.

anw. i want to watch 200 pounds beauty!! heard quite a lot ppl say quite nice. lol. but.. there's no time to go and watch. -.- hai. that's what happens wif sch starting. and tutorials are so hard. went to look at uccd and ssm de tutorial. reading the qns alone can make me stay away frm the tutorials le. lol. and i tot my dreams stopped coz i actually stopped dreaming for a day. lol. but it all came back yesterday. hai. and it's always abt the same thing. wat's wrong wif me?!!! i really wan to have dreamless nights.

hai. tell me wat should i say to make u feel better? i'm on the verge of giving up on you le leh.. coz i dunno whether i should encourage you to erase him away or to give it a try again. coz either way, you'll be hurt again.

it's not a good yr this time round. hai.

before i end off, mel mentioned i've changed? is it? in wat way? lol.

you're the reason ;
12:26 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

3 pigs wif one gigiantic pig.

can u see my unwilling face to take photos wif kaiyin? lol.

our toe nails. all coloured except kaiyin's.

jinhong and me.

omg. kaiyinwif sea monster? lol.

you're the reason ;
9:10 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

tiring day todae. and i left my pencil case in the clubhouse. -.- how stupid can i get further? wake up!! stop being so blur le.

hmm. had meeting todae. and luckily for me, nothing diu lian-ing happened to me todae. at least something nice for the day.

ask me what's the emotion i hate feeling most. i'll tell u it's the feeling of helplessness and regret.

HELPLESSNESS.
i really hate it. when i discover that i actually cant help someone, that i actually dun have the means to help someone. i just feel useless . and this feeling gets worse when that someone is a close one. coz all the more it makes me feel bad that i really cant do anything to help and i'll be hating myself. but that doesn't mean stop confiding in me hor. hmm. helplessness is really something that drives me to nuts. when i find that i dunno how to help someone, i wan to run away from it. i wan to scratch my head and try to help. but when i still cant find a solution, hai. that's the worst part. i wan to cry out. but. i dunno how.

REGRET
ppl say it's a wasteful emotion and i fully agree wif it. what's there to regret when it's already done and over? but.. no matter what, we will still regret and all the 'what if' will still come out. therefore, everytime i make a decision, i tell myself not to regret it. and normally on the surface i might not be regretting it. but i myself noe that deep down in my heart, i regret it but it's just that i'm trying to cover the regret up by pretending not to be regretful coz i hate the feeling of regret. oh well.

i'll not be in a nice mood tomolo i guess. pardon me, ppl. and something that you muz understand, when you're happy, i'm happy and when you're sad, i'm sad. and it's like i cant help to do anything. that feeling.. i really hate it.

you're the reason ;
10:22 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

tired.
and. i found that QA is another stats. -.- and it's so confusing!!! help me.. lol. hmm. anw. lots of tutors are making make-up lessons for next week's labour day. lol. it's onli the second week of sch and we have arrangements for make-up lessons. lol. and fma make-up lecture after labour day mayb after 5. hai. and i think i'll definitely fall asleep during the lecture coz i almost fell asleep during his tutorial todae. lol.

and jinhong was bullying me thru out the whole mrt journey todae!! she kept forcing me to say some things if not.. she'll blurt out some other things. lol. jinhong.. u dun like that lah. dun say out k? lol. pls lah~

hmm. while walking back home todae, i was thinking abt some things. den when i'm thinking abt some not-nice things. i tend to look at the floor. den i walked thru the tunnel (is it called tunnel?). anw. i walked too close to the wall of the tunnel den my head almost banged against the corners of the big boards that they use for advertisements de. and if u live in yishun, u noe there are a lot lot of ppl going thru that tunnel during evening time. so can imagine how paiseh i was. lol. and i quickly walked away. -.- so next time, dun think of things while walking.

nothing to talk abt le. lol. jinhong!! i wan the photos!! lol.

you're the reason ;
9:15 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

before i start to say anything. i would like to say something veri veri imp..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my DEAREST kaiyin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAIYIN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUU.

YOU're OFFICIALLY 18!!!! JOINED IN THE 18 CLUB LE!!!

have a really happy happy day todae wor!!
hope everything goes really well for you.
hope u and edwin stay together forever forever forever.
hope u get good results always.
hope u dun forget me. LOL.
and i wish all ur wishes can come true also!! lol.
stay crazy. coz we simply love ur craziness. lol.

another one in the clique who turned 18. and now left jinhong. lol. so we all four can go watch M18 except for poor jinhong. =x

hmm. continue wif what i going to update. yesterday called the new members who signed up for welfare services club. and some so rude!! -.- den.. i cant really remember what happened yesterday. lol. hmm. tutorials piling up and i've onli did fma. lol.

and mel. so sorry cant come online last night. coz i just turned off my com. when u sms to ask me to come online. -.-

you're the reason ;
11:40 AM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

hmm. i'm pulling myself out of the emo-ness. coz there's always a reason in life to smile. so i shall be happy. =) (lame) and there's no one to pull me out except myself. lol. anw. since i cant change the cls i'm in now, i just have to accept it ba. and get used to them. and i shall give time for everything to work out. and veri hopefully, it'll work out. =)

sch starting to warm up. thou it's onli the second week of sch next week. i'm having presentation already next week!! and got one module-MR, the teacher veri veri nice. she told us no need to print lecture notes coz it's already printed. den we went to the lecture todae and saw onli the tutorial. den!! she say we have to copy the notes ourselves from the slides. lol. and she says a lot of lecturers dun give out notes nowadays also. lol. but they do!! lol. so have to copy real fast frm now on.

just came back from wsc de meeting. and we planned a lot of activities this yr. lol. got to call the organisation tomolo. hope the activities would be really successful and fun.

you're the reason ;
10:27 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

hai. depressing to start the post wif a ''hai''. but well. cls started. and wx, mel and some others are in the same cls as me. but others are all split. and I REALLY ADMIT THAT I MISS DBA 07!!!! hai.

i miss the loud noisy laughters.
i miss kaiyin's ''it's lame'' expression when i say sth lame.
i miss jinhong's ability to make me feel that i'm taken care of.
i miss junwei, martin, wenshao's entertainment.
i miss the fact that dba07 is noisy, talkative.
i miss dba07 throwing face together in lectures.
i miss everything everything everything. =(

i miss most importantly, laughing and throwing face tgt wif jinhong, kaiyin, mel and weixin.
i miss sitting together in the bench, laughing, gossiping together.
i miss laughing aloud wif the five of you.
i miss those times.

that's people, isn't it? onli when it's gone, onli when it isn't like before, that we start to cry, that we start to cherish. it'll probably be too late, but that's human nature, i think. things aren't gong to be the same as before. and the worst thing is, jinhong's blog song. coz it's so sad. i listen le wan to cry. hai. but i still wan to listen coz it's really nice. but really sad. dun dare to listen to it in the night. i'll probably get veri veri emo. =(

we promised to meet up when we had breaks together. but it's hard to fulfill and maintain a promise, isn't it? hai. really hope i get used to this new cls ba. but i noe no matter how used to this cls i'll be, i will still miss dba07.

and i find that my emotions a bit strange recently. i'll be laughing wif weixin and mel in cls but when i get home alone, or when i just woke up in the morning alone. i can get veri sad and cry anytime small things or nothing happen. and i can have my eyes red red in public. wth. so paiseh lah. -.- am i getting depression? hai.

you're the reason ;
9:03 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

lol. was surfing a cold joke de website. came across this really lame joke. dunno whether u all got see it before anot. but it's really funny lah. lol. i see le i burst out in laughter. a bit long but really funny. lol.

一个男人自杀后去见上帝。上帝问：“我的孩子，你为什么要自杀啊？”男人说：“我追求一个女子，但是她说我没有高大英俊的身材和相貌，所以我被拒绝了。” 上帝若有所思的点点头说：“这到是，在爱情里面视觉效果是很重要的。这样吧，我给你一副举世无双的漂亮外壳，你现在回去追求你的幸福吧。” 说着上帝念起了咒语，只听“嗖”的一声，男人走了。一个星期后男人第二次自杀回来，又见到了上帝。上帝问：“我的孩子，你为什么又要自杀啊？”男人痛苦的说：“我回去以后，那个女子说，虽然我长的很帅，但是我一点都不了解她。我又被拒绝了。”上帝理解的点点头：“这是当然，如果不了解一个人，有怎么知道如何才能给她幸福呢？这样吧，我给你超人的洞察力和直觉，你回去追求你的幸福吧。” 说着上帝念起了咒语，只听“嗖”的一声，男人又走了。一个星期后男人又回来了，那是第三次自杀。上帝很惊讶的问：“我的孩子，你为什么又自杀了啊？”男人极端痛苦的说：我回去以后，虽然长的很帅，而且很了解她，但她说她早已经把自己的身体献给了另一个男人了。”上帝同情的看了看这个不幸的男人，最后说道： “这样吧，既然你这么喜欢那个女子，我就让那个男人死掉，这样那个女子就是你的了，你回去吧！”

说着上帝念起了了咒语，咒语刚念到一半，只听“咣当！”一声，上帝倒在地上，硬邦邦的死了。

男人高兴的说：“这下我终于可以回去追求那个漂亮的修女了！”

you're the reason ;
3:45 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

hmm. went out wif my mum todae and i got my shoes-those which can be worn to sch de coz it's not flats. lol. den after that walked around, came back le. lol. and i discovered my dark eye circles getting more prominent le lah!! sleep early also cant get to sleep. lol.

and!! my timetable is back to normal le. lol. no more 6 hrs break in between. phew. if not, i really dunno what to do wif 6 hrs of break. lol. den the dip plus in psychology de is also shown in the timetable and in progress report le. which means i need not call and ask the teacher-in-charge le. =) lol. and for cca drive, joanne gave me n jh our schedule le. lol. and i need to go stand by at the booth on mon and wed. but tues no need. lol. but joanne says it's not confirmed, so.. i also dunno. wed is the longest i need to stay in the booth ba. all the way from 1-6. coz i released at 1 on wed. -.- oh well. it's onli a 3 days affair. but prob is we haven discuss wif joanne what we going to do during the cca drive. -.-

you're the reason ;
7:51 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

hmm. went for flag day todae. tiring. and it was not motivating AT ALL. coz facs no need to do flag day last yr de and it's so not fair to this yr de facs--us. so we were like walking around onli. somemore. boon lay there stationed freshies from SB and EEE. so it's a lot ppl covering the area de lor. walk here walk there will see a lot of ppl le. lol. so i onli managed to raise a pathetic $18. lol. so paiseh. my fac cls highest de is abt $106 something. li hai. but she veri hardworking. go to hdb house to house somemore. lol.

wanted to find a new blogskin but cant find one that i really like. -.- so tired now, but i can be sure even if i go to bed now, i wont get to sleep till abt 1am den slowly i fall asleep. hai. next time den come back type more ba. mum going to scream at me le!! lol.

you're the reason ;
11:57 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

think i'll type back in eng, if i blog in chinese, thinkit'll take me abt 10 hrs to finish typing everything. lol. kua zhang a bit lah. lol.

anw. had freshmen orientation todae. and it was so ke xi coz we didn't manage to play any ice-breaking games coz there was not much time left for that. -.- tot games would be quite fun, but who noes, the sky starting spitting down water. lol. den ALL games cancelled. lol. so ke xi lor. they didn't get to play the quite-fun games. hai. den we took them for a tour round the sch. from fc 2 walked all the way to sb. almost fainted from so much walking!

den came hm, added all the cls de ppl into msn and most of them asked ''who are you?''. den i say ''u nv listen when i intro myself is it?'' lol. a bit fierce. lol. den i have to say i'm their fac again. lol. really shows how much they remember names huh. lol. and the cls is sooooooo quiet de. lol. me, weixin and kaiyin all sian1/2. we three sian1/2 means add together sian3/2. lol. lame.

hope tomolo gets better ba. hope there'll be fun tomolo when we dress them up! lol.

you're the reason ;
8:59 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

好久没用中文写字了，现在写起来还蛮有新鲜感的。哈哈。
刚打给了新鲜人(freshies)。哈哈。打着打着，突然发现打电话给不认识的人还蛮好玩的。哈哈

假期很快就要结束了，这两个多月过得真快啊。
时间总是飞驰而过，让我觉得真的要好好利用我们所有的时间，不然很快就会消失。虽然我并没有这么做。哈哈。不知道为什么，这次的我好想赶快开学哦，好想过很忙很忙的日子。怀疑我的神精是不是有点问题。哈哈。可是，我可以很肯定地说，开学后，我一定又想过回没事情做的日子。哈哈。善变的我。

觉得有点失败，写了这么久只写了一点点。哈哈。不写了。累了。哈哈。

you're the reason ;
10:40 PM

went to fop briefing todae. lol. almost every group leader so high lah. but. haha. me n weixin were like so sian. lol. we were considering to go home earlier. lol. but den we still played every game. the most funniest game should be 123 木头人. lol. it's like when someone shout "123 木头人" den u cant move. lol. and we have to go 2 rounds the rubbish bin, climb table, blah blah. den it's so funny to see ppl freezing their actions. LOL. esp. kaiyin. laughed till my stomach so pain. lol.

but todae me n weixin quite sian. lol. hope mon will be better wif the freshies ba. =)

you're the reason ;
8:46 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

went out wif jinhong todae to take pay. she was so sian thou she slept for like 13 hrs frm last night till this afternoon. lol. but can forgive lah. coz she say camp that time she slept veri little onli. lol. den after taking pay, went to return our lib. books. decided to go woodlands to return it. walked ard there. den we went hm at abt 7.30. lol. not that woodlands a lot things to walk. but coz we meet veri late in the afternoon so that ms. jinhong can sleep more. i'm so kind. lol.

and stupid jinhong kept trying to take videos of me!! den she'll trick me she's not trying to take a video when her handphone is pointed at me de. -.- den she kept trying to hold my hand. lol. i noe u like me. but not so obvious mah. LOL. anw. there's an ultra BIG moth in the house. dunno where it flew to le. if it lands in front of the com, think i'll faint in front of the com. -.-

you're the reason ;
10:23 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

hmm. chose my gems le. haha. got into what i wanted--better pronunciation for better speech. ok lah. this gem quite convenient coz it's in t21. LOL. super near lah. unlike my previous gem where i have to walk veri veri far. lol.

and i clicked on the teacher's photo, saw her face. hmm. quite kind-looking. lol. but dunno whether looks are deceiving anot. lol. later have to help mel register for her psychology. hope can successfully help her register ba. coz i now go back the page see, all psycho de slots taken up le. lol. -.-

you're the reason ;
9:57 AM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

hmm. woke up at 7am todae. slept at 2am last night. and my eyes are so tired now. lol. but i cant go take a nap. if not later at night, i cant get to sleep de.

hmm. todae's april fool's day!!! lol. first person i tricked was... lol. better not say out if not later he paiseh that he got tricked by me. lol. after that tried to trick my sis. but she no reaction de. -.- act cool in front of me.

chagned my blog de song again. lol. found this nicer. lol.

you're the reason ;
2:08 PM