Tuesday, July 31, 2007
finally. all report and presentations are all handed up. what's left is tests which will take place next week. -.- and so stupid lah. next week is supposed to be our study week (definition: stay at home study de week). and since it's stay at home, means no need go sch mah. but still have to go and be audience for rwps ppt, for ssm test and gems test. lol. like that, like next week not study week le. -.-
anw. this week as compared to last week, was more relaxed ba. no need to worry about anything and we can just sit down there during our breaks, doing our own stuff or just crapping all the way. lol. and looking back, actually, last week was really a veri busy week and i begin to wonder how did i manage to get over it? lol.
over the past few weeks, so many times, i've knocked on the door of "giving up". so many times, it opened its doors to me, and i wanted to go in and just give up completely. but, i still held on, refusing to go in. all thanks to you. lol. nv knew that promises would be so powerful that everytime i think of giving up, i'll think of my promise to you den i'll "force" myself to just hang in there.
hmm. anw. it's over now. and it's ur turn to keep ur promise! lol.
just saw one piece of news that australian pupils have to wear sunglasses now, it's compulsory. like so strange lah. imagine everyone starts to wear black glasses to sch. LOL. so weird. but it's to protect their eyesight. lol. imagine everyone in sp appears like this in sch.
LOL. wont it be veri funny? =x.
you're the reason ;
11:31 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
veri long nv update le coz it's been a hectic week, reports deadlines and tests coming non-stop. next mon is going to be the worst day ever. lol. lab test, rwps ppt and psycho test. and all these days, i've or rather me n weixin have been telling ourselves that it's going to be over, so muz endure. but as i was trying to memorise the stupid psycho notes/text book. i really began to doubt whether i can really hang on for so long. but i noe i muz hang on. hmm. muz jia you!
i just cant seem to get the freaking formula of QA and the theories of psycho into my brain leh. a lot to study for psycho. and i really wonder how did i manage to pass my bio. lol. so many to memorise that time and how did i manage to memorise it huh? qi guai. lol. QA also. how did i manage to memorise those formulae of A and E maths in the past huh? when i cant do so for QA now. lol. brain degenerates as one grows older. really true.
woke up early todae to go do rwps ppt. considered done le ba. left make-up for the ppt slides. lol. and den came back hm psycho-ed all the way and i still got 4 chapts to go!! hai. and i haven prepare for my rwps ppt. lol. oh no~ while i was practising excel for the lab test, made me think of yr 1. where everything was still so relaxed and life was still considered comfy then, as compared to now. this never stopping hectic life.
pray for me that i can really finish rwps ppt, qa lab and psycho revision by tomolo's night.
you're the reason ;
12:12 AM
Monday, July 23, 2007
misunderstandings are sometimes so well hidden that one dun discover it's a misunderstanding til the other party speaks up first. but it's all so common that i always thought it would be cleared up really easily, that relations would not be affected and after that, the trust would still be there, pure and intact just as how we left it before the misunderstanding took place. but it turns out, it does damage to the word-trust as well. and i wont give a damn about the trust if u weren't someone who matters to me. but apparently, u wont trust anyone anymore. and that's the sad thing.
anw. just felt veri strongly recently that life's too short for regrets, hatred, smiles and love.
so we should all not regret something we did coz it's a wasteful emotion that does nothing but make u feel worse.
live and let live, forgive n forget are the two phrases that i will associate hatred with. since life's so short, why waste whole of ur life hating him/her? it's so tiring eh. seeing that person and having to remind urself that i cant be frenly to him/her coz i'm supposed to be hating him/her. might as well forgive that person and give him/her one more chance.
we should also smile and laugh while we can, even till our mouths are numb. lol. coz u will nv noe when u cant smile anymore.
and.. we should love all we can as well. never keep any love in ur heart, give it to the person u think deserve the most coz u'll nv noe what might happen to him/her the next second. even thou that person might not be the one u'll be staying wif the rest of ur life, but it's the one time that matters not the duration of how long.
and i'll hang on de. at least with you there, even if hope is as thin as a thread, i'll hold on to it.
i'm so chim in my post todae. lol. going to sleep le. so tired.Labels: shorty life.
you're the reason ;
11:56 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
enjoy this song. a song which touched me always.
You Raise Me Up -
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
you're the reason ;
6:49 PM
hmm. it's another tiring day todae. with the wsc meeting with skates club. onli one word can be used to describe the meeting--weird. lol. and both me n liming lost our speech during the meeting coz we didn't talk at all. lol. i was busy taking down meeting min while liming was happily stuck in philippines with her uccd grp members.
and it's so hard to find info. on china. a lot irrelevant and wat i wan to find is not there. -.- and i just saw weixin n mel's blogs. both got write schedules for all the weeks up to the exam week. both crazy. lol. esp. mel. write so long. and i discovered that mel would be a violent mum in future. there was a baby boy crying in the train todae on our way to sch. and mel say if it's her baby, she would strangle it. lol. so violent right!
sometimes, when i'm not in a position to comment on anything or scold anyone, i'll just keep quiet. coz it'll be really unfair to the person. so if u find me not joining u in scolding the person u were pissed off with, it does not mean i'm like on her side. it's just coz i feel that i dun have any right to say anything. and the best thing i can do or will do is that i'll be listening to u. and i'm not trying to defend her when i help her say something. i'm just helping u to look at things from another angle.
and dun forget, everyone including the person with the greatest tolerance level, has a limit to his/her patience. once u step over, bye to you. they'll forgive u but u'll find that they'll become really hostile to you after that. so. dun test it, ppl. and in times of under such stress, my temper isn't in the best after all. and i'm still not showing it to anyone else. so.. dun let me try it on you.
you're the reason ;
1:39 AM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
before i go into a frenzy of finishing my reports and everything, think i'll update first ba. had 2 presentations in a row todae and it's so tiring. but at least, some parts of the projects are done with le. left mainly reports to do and hand in. luckily tomolo no meeting. if not, i dunno when i'll have the time to finish so many reports. but fri got meeting. -.-
the journey home todae was torturous. not coz i had to go home wif jh (thou it's veri xin ku also. lol) not coz there are a lot of ppl todae (thou there are really a lot ppl) BUT. it's coz of my stupid shoes. it's sooooo painful and i was walking veri slowly. think in the whole day, the way home was the longest dist i walked, and ppl were looking at me. lol. so paiseh. think i walked too slowly le.
anw. yesterday was psycho presentation and we were doing on the various different types of disorder. and one grp was concluding by saying that love actually helps to overcome everything and allows a person to live healthily in terms of emotion. true? lol. i dunno but it certainly got my attention when i was dozing off. but too bad, it onli got my attention at the conclusion part. lol.
reports left:
- psycho
- ssm individual report
- uccd
- rwps
you're the reason ;
8:52 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
before i sleep, i'll update first ba. it's just been a busy week. but i HOPE that after next week, it'll be better coz presentations and reports are going to be handed up next week den no need to do so many things le. i wan to sleep~ >.< even typed wrong password just now and i tot what happen to my account. lol.
anw. MR lecturer mentioned something about grpwork which i find it veri true indeed. she mentioned that in a project, the difficult part is not solving the questions. it's working with ppl. which is so true. lol. this time round, i've experienced what's BAD group work. it's not a nice experience but i'll hang on till the project's over and learnt a lesson not to work with these people again.
hai. after reports, it's tests tests and tests. never ending. =( next week i still got gems test which i think is gone case le. lol. so hard. regretting taking this gems. hopefully, next gems i take would be better ba. nothing much to say also. lol. just that take care everyone and hang on! it'll be over soon!! (think i'm reminding myself).
going to sleep le! bye.
you're the reason ;
1:27 AM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
well, well, well. tears do run out of supply. lol. sometimes, when ur sadness all that reach a certain stage, u'll feel sad and wan to cry. but u cant cry anymore, ur heart's twisting but no tears can come out. that's what i call the ulimate stage of sadness. a stage where u're sad n down, but ur tears just cant flow out, u smile n laugh as usual. but inside, it's all pain.
anw. uccd not done yet. and i really hope to do finish by next mon. but hopes will always remain as hopes. hai. everyone's under so much stress. that's yr 2 ba. but muz jiayou and hang on wor. it'll be over really soon. next week is presentatin and report handing up week. it'll be a really busy week ba. hai.
you're the reason ;
9:19 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
nowadays, i think the 2 words in my head are project project den tutorial tutorial. lol. and i think my stm getting worse le. =( wat if i even forget those dearest to me? lol. i cant imagine what'll happen when that time comes.
we still cant get our uccd de marks. -.- it's the onli module which haven give us back the paper and it's the one that all of us are most worried about. hai. hope ronald gives it back real soon thou he will be busy selling french fries in mac. LOL. ronald macdonalds. and! even our report de marks he dun wan to give. hai. hope he next week can give us the marks ba.
weixin, dun feel abandoned anymore.
the feeling i also get it sometimes and it's also coz of my parents.
the feeling is so familiar to me, i've cried over it for like dunno how many times, over how many years.
till i'm tired of it. and dun feel like crying for something they dun care anymore.
u'll feel that it's really very very unfair. but u also dunno how to tell them. coz u're afraid tat they'll feel that u're grabbing for attention and it seems childish to tell them that u're sort of jealous over ur own sibling.
sometimes, i even get scolded for something i didn't do. i will feel very angry, sad and disappointed in them.
i'll wonder why are they like that?
and sometimes, when i get home late after psycho cls, feeling veri tired. they will still ask me to check my bro's sch work. when i ask why cant they ask my sis to check. they'll say, coz she also came back late from sch. how late i would ask. about 7 something.
-.- during that time, i'm still in cls. that's the unfairness of it all.
u onli wan a little little bit of care from them, but they just dun do it.
and u'll feel kinda left out.
but. come to think of it. they're also humans and it's normal for every human to be bias. so, sometimes, i just let them be. since i really cant do anything about it.
and trust me, u'll lead a happier life this way. =)
at least, u can be sure we'll be there for you. always. always.
you're the reason ;
9:23 PM
rules of the game: each player of this game starts off with ten weird habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagget are supposed to continue the trend. at the end of the game you must choose another 6 victims. no tagbacks!
1- i cant sleep in the afternoon even for half an hour, if not at night, i would be staring at my room de ceiling cant go to sleep. even if i'm veri tired. lol. poor me. =(
2- i am EXTREMELY forgetful and blur. lol. this i admit ok.
3- i can listen to sad songs at night and then in a min, tears would be flowing out of my eyes.
4- my actions take place before i can think about it. so.. sometimes, i just do things not without thinking. it's just that by the time my brain process the thing, my actions have shown it liao. lol.
5- i can have really weird dreams during exam period. dun ask me why! i dunno. lol.
6- i dunno why also. but i love to 'lol' a lot in msn conversations.
7- i love to tell cold jokes to ppl. lol.
8- i laugh at my own cold jokes when i tell it to ppl. lol.
9- i dun like running away from problems but when something happens, i wont take the initiative to explain things to the other person first. i will just drag for a veri long time, i noe this is bad. but, i just cant help it. =(
10- i dun feel comfortable with expressing my love for my frens. lol. mayb it's shyness. but even between besties, i wont say love you or all that. but they noe it's all deep inside my heart. =)
i dun wan sabo ppl to do this thing. if u're my fren and are part of my link. pls do it ba. for fun. lol.
you're the reason ;
8:50 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
projects are piling up and i think it'll turn into a mountain soon. lol. the week i hate most in this term is week 14 ba. lol. all presentations and report deadlines are squeezed into that stupid one week. -.- really hope can finish all the reports on time. esp. my dear psycho de. coz i realised as we were discussing the project todae that the psycho de carries with it 200 marks!! i've nv sen a paper which has 200 marks de lah. lol. first time see le i stunned.
anw. no need to ask and dun ask coz it's really over le. and. it doesn't mean that you are not a good fren if u didn't ask me. the thing is, i feel that a good fren will respect me and if i dun feel like saying it out, he/she wont force me. even if he/she forces me, i wont say de. no matter how much or how many times you ask. it's not i dun trust you or i dun confide in you, it's coz sometimes, i just wan to deal wif it myself. dun wan to depend on anyone. and when i need a listening ear, i will just tell you dun care whether u wan to listen anot. lol. so, dun worry.
mayb these few days may appear to be in a sian mood, but it's all coz of the projects that are piling up and i dun think i can really manage a real laugh or smile unless the whole project thing is over. =(
you're the reason ;
11:36 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
if asked to use one word to describe tues, it would be tiring ba. everyone was so tired todae. lol. had to struggle to keep myself awake during fma. -.-
suddenly i've realised that dennis ng would be leaving real soon le. in about 2-3 weeks time ba. and he was so funny during his tutorial todae. and i can guarantee that i will surely miss him a lot lot lot. he's the onli teacher who tells us his experiences in the salesforce, the one who gives us advice in humourous ways. and he's the onli one who makes us laugh in almost every one of his lecture and tutorial. and his tutorial is the one that all of us look forward to in tues despite all of us being so tired and all that. in his cls, it's hard to fall asleep coz u'll be laughing real hard at his teachings. and he really taught us a lot of things outside the scope of study. the most nice thing abt him is he can emphathise wif us as we complain to him abt the huge amt of schwork and no breaks in between lessons. well. all in all. he's a nice teacher. all nice things will come to an end. =(
suddenly started to think about this word-PROMISES.
exactly, what are they? i think they are only valuable when they are made by someone during the start of everything. when someone makes a promise in the beginning, they really mean it from the bottom of their heart and they really wan to do it for that special person.
however, everything changes as time pass by.
over a period of time, promises become obligations that the person who made the promise have to fulfil. in this case, they dun do it from the bottom of their heart. they do it simply because they have to do so. isn't it saddening?
so, dun make promises that u cant fulfil. if u make a promise, make sure they dun turn into obligations.
you're the reason ;
9:54 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
FINALLY found a skin that i liked. lol. those who noe me well would noe why i chose this skin ba. lol. and i find this skin a veri happy one. so hope those who not in good mood see this skin le can smile. LOL. crapping.
hmm. tomolo sch starts le. and it's back to waking up early in the wee hours and then coming home late. -.- and there are just so many projects and reports waiting to chase us.
REPORTs
1. UCCD
2. SSM
3. PSYCHO
4. RWPS
this morning woke up and first thing i did was look at my calendar, saw that it was still in the month of jun and so, i changed and flipped it over to july. time really flies. lol. and once i flip to july, saw so many deadlines there that i wanted to flip back to jun again. lol.
you're the reason ;
6:28 PM
LOL. wont it be veri funny? =x.