Friday, August 31, 2007

went out wif jinhong todae to get whatever she needs for her present to her xiaodi. lol. den after that, we rememebered clubhouse's dusty and mouldy first aid kit and we decided to get a new one. den stupid jinhong suggested to go to the place where we learnt first aid to get them. at first, i was ok with it. but upon further thinking, i began to ask myself and jinhong: "what if they dun have? den we diu lian leh." but idiot jinhong kept insisting to go and ask. and by the time we reach the level where the centre was situated, i was practically doing my best to escape from going in there to prevent throwing my face. lol. but jinhong was practically pulling my hand along. den no choice had to go in. lol. and luckily they got sell lah, if not, so paiseh sia. and they still say can go for refreshment course to refresh our memory if we forgot how to do first aid le. lol.

anyway, going back to my sec sch tomolo and to my tuition teacher's house. have to get geared up for a journey of memories tomolo. and i have to get up early. -.- so, i'm off to bed. bye.

you're the reason ;
12:15 AM

Thursday, August 30, 2007

list out ur top 5 birthday presents u wish for:
- a driving licence.
- then, a car. lol.
- be able to see shooting stars.
- a cello ornament.
- everyone to be happy everyday. =)

1.the person who tagged u is:
CHUA KAIYIN.

2.ur relationship w her is:
laughing buddies, diulian-ing buddies and of course, one of the nicest frens i had.

3. ur 5 impressions of her:
- quiet
- kite (coz i think she'll fly away if the wind blows hard enough. lol!)
- tall
- makes funny laughing sounds. lol.
- has a wide range of funny expressions.

4.the most memorable thing she had done for u:
celebrated my birdae with a surprise cake. and i realy didn't suspect anything! lol.

5.the most memorable words tt she had said to u:
hmm. too many le leh. lol.

6. she becomes your lover, u will?:
i'll run away!! i scared edwin come and... lol.

7.if she's ur lover,what she has to improve on:
grow fatter so that more sense of security. lol.

8.if she becomes ur enemy,u will?
convert her back to my fren again? lol.

9.if she becomes ur enemy,the reason is:
she's growing thinner. lol. bad for health den i'll be angry at her den enemy. lol.

10.the most desire thing you would like to do for her now is?
lend her everything she needs.

11.your overall impression of her:
nice gal.

12. how do you think ppl ard u will feel abt u?
hmm. blur, careless, someone who would rather run away from problems than try to solve it and lame? lol.

13.the character u love abt urself is:
be able to comfort myself MOST of the time.

14.on the contrary,what charcter u hate abt urself:
unable to make ppl feel better when they can do so for me. =(

15.the most ideal person i would like to be:
someone called LING HUI. lol.

16.for the ppl who cared & liked u,say smthg to them:
thanks for always being there when i needed you all. sometimes, a pair of ears or eyes is perhaps already enough. and i may not say it often but i do love all of you to bits! lol. and i may not be able to help much but i'll always be here ya? =D

17.pass this quiz to 10 ppl tt u wish to know how they feel abt u. *no tag back!!*
1) nelson
2) huijia
3) chow xuan
4) fang
5) melissa
6) jinhong
7) weixin
8) elaine
9) rafie
10) baoxin

who's n.o 2 having relationship with:
lol. no one ba.

is n.o9 a female/male:
male.

if n.o 1 & 10 be tgt,will it be a gd thing:
LOL. i practically laughed out. hmm. but no.10 veri veri tall leh. can ask jinhong. lol.

how abt n.o 3&4:
lol. unless they're lesbian if not, might not be a good thing. lol.

n.o 2 studying abt:
JC de stuff? lol.

when was the last time u'd chatted with n.o 3:
veri veri long le, kinda miss her laughter.

what kind of music does n.o 8 like?
rock?

n.o 6 has any siblings?
ya, one elder brother.

will u woo n.o 3?
no! lol.

how abt n.o7?
i've even given my first kiss to her le la. lol.

is n.o 4 single?
ya, think so.

surname of n.o 5:
wong

what's the hobby of n.o 5:
diu lianing?

n.o 3 studying at:
SP.

have u try developed feelings for n.o 8?
NO WAY!.

where does n.o9 live?
er, dunno leh.

what colour does n.o4 like?
not sure leh.

is n.o 1&3 best friend?
no. 1 is more than best fren, and no. 3 is good fren ba. lol.

does n.o 7 like n.o 2?
they nv seen each other how to noe. lol.

how do know u n.o 2?
my good fren in sec sch.

does n.o 5 has pet?
dun think so. lol.

you're the reason ;
10:57 PM

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

going into the 5th day of holiday? lol. went out wif jinhong todae? or rather ytd since it's past midnight. went ard ikea and it was EXTREMELY cold. my hand felt like ice lo. lol. keep trying to warm it but to no avail.

dun feel like sleeping early tonight, dunno why. was veri tired just now de. but now, thinking of some things make me dun feel like sleeping le. will there be a time whereby one will stay up all night till the next day to spend their time thinking abt things and den crying his/her troubles out into the pillow? hmm. den next day will feel better ma? lol. dunno, mayb one day ill get the chance to try it? lol. but i'll surely fall asleep.

when things get too difficult, i'll be here to stand by u.
sometimes, when i dunno how to help you, i brace myself up not to let the water find its way down my cheeks. coz when u're weak, i have to be strong, when u're sad, i hav to be happy.
and it's at a time like this, when ppl think too much that i began to hate hols. i rmb the last long hols, i was trying to occupy myself with so many things in order not to let myself think too much. should start that again, i think. hai.
just wanted to remind u that, u really deserve something better. loving urself is much more worthwhile than u-noe-what.
why put urself down to so much misery coz of another person?
and what's the use when no one appreciates it?
dun do this to urself la, it just aches my heart-

you're the reason ;
12:44 AM

Monday, August 27, 2007

changed my blog's url for the sake of privacy. and onli those whom i wan them to read this blog would be informed ba. that'll make this blog more private to me, i hope. lol.

didn't had a veri good night's sleep yesterday. in fact, it was a strange night, as if i didn't really sleep at all. lol. first, when i drifted off to sleep, i dunno whether it was a dream or what, but i felt like my appendix was aching whole night den like i woke up a lot of times in the night. and i also changed my sleeping position a lot of times to stop it from hurting. but when i woke up at around 7 am+ (thanks to my mum who was making so much noise that she woke me up) , i didn't feel any pain leh. hmm. den i went back to sleep again, den had a nightmare about you. =S den my mum woke me up AGAIN coz she forgot her keys. -.- den i lie here and there on the bed den got up le. lol. bad night. hope tonight no more dreams, nice ones can but bad ones, keep it away pls.

was supposed to go to sch todae wif jinhong, but since the gloomy weather was threatening me not to go, we changed to going there tomolo. lol. and i stayed at home, tidying my drawers and cupboard. still left one more drawer. tomolo den i continue. lol. and while i was tidying, was reading thru some of the letters my frens sent me. and it's really a good feeling to think abt the past, to be able to go back to the past secondary sch days for a while. really sweet and i would be smiling to myself as i read those letters. that's what i like abt letters i guess, brings back memories if u keep it in a place for 10 years den u take it out and read. no matter at that time how bitter the memories are, when u read it again aft a long time, it'll still be sweet. =)

it's the little things that counts.

you're the reason ;
8:44 PM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

went to my grandma's house todae and as usual, it was my little cousin entertaining me, showing me how he had his tkd practices and all that. lol. and thou his talking was more of a lullaby to me than something exciting, but he keep wanting to take me and my sis for demo of his skills. lol. which strongly alerted me when i was close to falling asleep when listening to him talk. lol. and he says lies without changing his expression. lol. and of course i believed him, den he suddenly say:" no lah, bluff you de." i almost wanted to kill him. =x lol. he's my daily entertainment whenever i go to my grandma's house.

anw, our club's treasure hunt was quite successful, all details pls go to our club link at my links there if u're interested to noe what happen. and during the event, i've found out what's the tolerance level for me, surprisingly, it's quite high, despite having to walk to and fro, to and fro under the big sun. BUT, i didn't complain. or was it because there was no one beside me to complain to? lol. i choose to believe in the first one. lol.

i'm mentally n emotionally sick of everything.

you're the reason ;
11:57 PM

Friday, August 24, 2007

FINALLY. exams over le~ and it's holiday time!! =D see the watermelon here also as happy as me, it's smiling also. lol.

after that, went clarke quay there wif weixin they all. and we walked from there to city hall. my legs almost dissolved into thin air. lol. so suan. but that time when i walked there, not as suan leh. hmm. getting older le. lol. but i think not as old as weixin da-jie ba. LOL. =x oops.

everytime after every exam, i would learn something new. whether it's to learn not to be careless anymore or learn how to manage my time properly. and it's the same wif this exam. from this exam, i've studied hard for it, no doubt. but i doubt i'll score that well. coz still qns dunno how to do and all that shit.

but one day, as i was drowning in the sea of depression that i created for myself, suddenly, a thinking went "pop" into my head. lol. and i asked myself, what is there to be depressed about? as long as i've done my best, prepared my best and that i'm accountable to myself, that's all that matters to me. i've not let myself down by not studying hard for it. and so long as i'm able to look into my own eyes in the mirror and tell myself that i've done whatever i could have do, i'm glad. so, no matter what my gpa for this sem would be, i'll be contented and move on. but mayb give myself one day to be sad over it ba. lol. if not, too cruel to myself le. lol. den after that, move on to sem 2 where i promise i'll do my best for it. lol.

hmm. and, i've decided i wan to do things that i've wanted to do, but never got the motivation or guts to take the first step. so that, one day, when i'm old, i'm able to reflect back on my life and be happy and contented that i've done everything i wanted to do in this life. and coz we all onli live once, it's kind of a waste if we dun do what we wan when we're still well and able like this. i dun wan to live till veri old le den reflect back on my life and say, "hai, should have done this, done that." i dun wan to have regrets. lol.

and so, the first thing i thought of is to do volunteering work with those veri small charity homes which need volunteers de. coz those big de organisations they should have a lot of ppl and funds as compared to those small homes ba. so the small homes perhaps need more help. but, problem is that it's so hard to find a home sia. it's always been something i wanted to do, and hence i joined welfare services club, but.. the club, though is great but not what i first thought out to be. and i wan to take the first step now, by finding some charitable organisations. anyone wan to do wif me? u're welcome to do so. =)

enough of reflections le. lol.

tomolo got event in sch still. lol. tired but cant get to sleep now. -.- and i have to wake up at around 6, 7 plus plus. this is how i celebrate the first day of my hols. LOL. =x

you're the reason ;
11:45 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

if u're wondering why am i posting this pic when it's not 14 feb yet,
and if u're wondering whether i'm mad from all those studying to mix up dates,
well.. i didn't mix up. lol.

it's...... 七夕情人节 todae! lol. it's on this date that the weaving maid meets the cowboy? (forgive me for my direct translation). and my mum told me that's why it's been raining all day. den i asked her den how the magpies going to come together to form the bridge? lol. and she didn't noe how to reply me.

time's running out and before it's over, i just wan to wish everyone, single or taken, a veri HAPPY 七夕情人节!!!!! find ur love soon for those singles, and those taken, cherish the one beside u!!!!

you're the reason ;
11:11 PM

Friday, August 17, 2007

lol. i'm having my lunch in front of the comp. and i just dun feel like eating after i've ate 3 mouths of it. but.. still have to eat. why dun feel like eating leh? coz got the chou gu (mushrooms). lol. and since i dun like it, i will always eat it first. den the taste is still in my mouth. -.- dun feel like eating anymore.

anw, MR exam todae and it was just.... bad. so hard lah. even worse than past yr paper. and i was close to tears while doing the paper coz i just duno what was i writing for the first half of the paper. but, had to tell myself to bear with it. and bear with it til i reach home. hmm. but no use worrying abt my MR now ba, since i cant do anything abt it le, why not put the energy of worrying into studying for other modules? worry abt it when exams end and results going to be released. lol. but i noe it's not going to help even if i tell myself this. say le, hard to do sia. so, will some kind soul, if u see me whining and complaining abt my MR exam, pls remind me GENTLY that it's over, no use thinking abt it and to worry abt it when results release. thanks. lol.

and while going home with mel todae, we saw a veri funny scene and we were both laughing lke mad. lol. there was this baby, i think she's onli one yr old. den she kept looking at this little boy. so the little boy was making faces, and this made her went into a state of continuous laughter, stopping onli when she was drinking her milk. den she kept smiling to ppl she saw also. so cutee! lol. den me n mel found her laughter veri funny and we laughed along with the baby til she stopped. lol. and the little boy, after the baby was gone, kept staring at me. lol. and he reached his stop le den still say bye bye. -.- but his stop was......... yishun. lol. so it's same stop as us.

and i finished typing this le. still haven finish my lunch. lol. oh well. fma and qa, here i come~

you're the reason ;
2:51 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

FINALLY. i'm updating. lol. was trying to get MR into my head for the past few days and it was so hard lah. so many things to memorise. and yesterday, my sis was asking me some qns abt her chem test todae. den i realised, chem facts are still in my head. -.- dunno why, i have this strange brain. lol. things that i wan to rmb at the moment, it wont allow me to rmb. but after a long time, i tend to rmb them, even though a lot of time has passed. lol.

anw, my sis said something yesterday that made me laugh out real loud. lol.
sis: "i wan to quickly grow up, den no need to study le."
me: "huh?"
sis: " really ma.."
me: laughing off and was trying to tell my mum abt what she said. lol.

but actually, sec sch times are the best times isn't it.
u can spend whole day in sch, gossiping abt ppl, laughing abt stupid things and no one will say u're childish coz u're still in sec sch, spreading rumours and of course, spending time away during recess time talking to ur frens. but now, these times are so far away, so, i'm not going to care. i've decided that i'm going to savour my sec sch life when i go back during teachers' day. lol.

hmm. going to have to go back to studying le. sian. i've survived thru these few days by spending time with books, hp, books, hp, books, hp. lol. thanks for those who entertained me wor. lol. =x

oh ya. i had a weird dream last night. lol. i dreamt that me and my sec sch frens were attending the same lecture, which is imposs coz some of them are in jc. lol. but anw, i dreamt that the lecture was about...... how to bake cakes and cookies. LOL. and if my mum didn't wake me up to open the door for her coz she forgot to bring her keys, i could have known how to bake a cake le leh. lol.

back to studying le! jia you everyone! veri fast we can have fun le!! =)

you're the reason ;
11:54 AM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

once upon a time, when i was not that optimistic as now, this song bought me to my senses and pushed me along. it taught me that nothing in this world is easy and that everything we do, there are bound to be failures and all that, but most importantly, we muz noe how to stand up to these failures and learn from it. so, i hope this song will help u to hang on and persevere to the very end as well.

HERO-Mariah Carey

There's a hero,
If you look inside your heart,
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are.

There's an answer,
If you reach into your soul,
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away.

CHORUS:
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on.
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive.
So when you feel like hope is gone.
Look inside you and be strong.
And you'll finally see the truth,
That a hero lies in you.

It's a long road,
When you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold.

You can find love,
If you search within yourself,
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear.

(CHORUS)

Lord knows,
Dreams are hard to follow.
But don't let anyone,
Tear them away.

Hold on,
There will be tomorrow.
In time,
You'll find the way.

(CHORUS)

That a hero lies in you.

you're the reason ;
11:47 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007

didn't wan to blog todae de. but. i just clicked on my junior's blog and saw some really terrifying pics. and i'm now still in a state of shock. makes me wonder why anyone would wan to do that. well. den i saw a term-->thinspiration. den i went search online for it. and the results i got were terrifying!!

i dun wan post here to scare anyone or everyone. so just take a look here, if u wan. but if u hadn't had ur meals, PLS dun look. guess it'll spoil ur appetite. so freaky lah! i was nearly close to tears when i saw the pics in my junior's blog and was literally shocked when i saw the webpage.

going off to study le. BYE. miss all of you!!

you're the reason ;
6:33 PM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

well. to keep my promise to mel, i'm typing out the 10 veri meaningful phrases. ponder it over coz some are really really meaningful.

1. 没有一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人

2. 付出真心，才会得到真心，却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离，就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞

3. 通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人，才是真正爱你的人

4. 有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重

5. 冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具

6. 如果我们之间有1000 步的距离，你只要跨出第一步，我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

7. 为你的难过而快乐的，是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的，是朋友
为你的难过而难过的，就是那些该放进心里的人

8. 就算是believe 中间，也藏了一个lie

9. 真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起，就算不说话，也不会感到尴尬

10. 朋友就是被你看透了，还能喜欢你的人

which one do u agree most or touched u the most? lol. think for me, the 2 sentences i would most firmly believe in are no. 7 and 9. tag me ur views!.

oh ya. and HAPPY BIRDAE TO SINGAPORE!!! have a nice birdae. lol.

you're the reason ;
4:38 PM

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

hmm. haven been in the best of mood these few days. dunno why. just felt mooooooody. lol. so many Os. anw. went for ssm test todae and i think to at least get a B for ssm would be like reaching for the stars in the sky, not to mention about getting a B+. oh well, it's all over and i promised myself to learn from this mistake this time and next time not to make the same mistake again le.

BUT. even comforting myself this way, my mood still doesn't get any better. =( what's wrong with me?! someone, slap me away and bring the old me back leh. lol. and for these few days, i've been eating foods with extreme tastes. lol. i've put a lot lot lot of chilli into my food, caused my bro to exclaim, "u crazy ar?!!" lol. this onli happens when i'm in extreme moods. i've also asked my sis to buy me chocolates, with the hope of cheering myself up, but to no avail. i've also tried to find cold jokes. but it onli made me laugh to myself and the comp den after that, the dreaded feeling returns.

hope all the moodiness will just get away. just go away, stay away from me. and the worst thing is i dun even noe what is causing these moodiness. =(

on a lighter note, todae, while taking train back wif mel, overheard 2 guys talking.
guy 1: ..."good horse dun eat back head grass" (translate into chi)
guy2: but the grass nice leh.
LOL. me n mel were talking halfway den we tried to control our laughter. but no use lah. lol. den after that, one of the guy alighted le. den left the guy alone. den he fell asleep. and his head almost touched mel's shoulder! lol! this really tickled us and we were laughing non-stop. lol. den mel kept saying my hand electrify her hand when i touched her. but i nv feel the shock when i touch her leh. qi guai.

anw. my parents and bro are off to malaysia tomolo le. the house's left to me n my sis. lol. can wreak havoc. =x

you're the reason ;
3:51 PM

Monday, August 06, 2007

a song i find it veri veri touching. enjoy it.

张惠妹 - 如果你也听说
作词：李焯雄作曲：周杰伦
我发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说
夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多
如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何
如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作
夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候想你更多
如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和舍不得要无可奈何
如果你也听说会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔
如果你也听说有没有想过我
想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我你会想到什么

you're the reason ;
9:31 PM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

I WAN MY BEDROOM DECO TO BE LIKE THIS!!! was surfing aimlessly on the web den came across this pic. so nice! i went WOW in front of the comp when i saw this. lol. and i've decided this is wat my future bedroom will be. lol. the drawing is like so real and nice lah. and of course this is not someone's home. if not.. i'll be so envious of him/her. it's a resort somewhere in the world which collaborated with the me-to-you bear de company den made this special room de. but i dun care. i wan my room to be like that in future. lol.

headached for half of the day. and i still dunno why. -.- was studying dearest ssm den decided to take a break since my head was throbbing. so. i'm taking a break till now. lol. at night den study ba. oh ya. tomolo still need to go sch for rwps. sian.

hai. suddenly, i miss the life during the 3 mths course in jc. those times where laughing non-stop with racheal and zinc made our days. i miss them! they're the onli ones who'll laugh at my cold jokes. remember the first time i told them a cold joke, they were laughing so hardly. lol. i was stunned and i really asked them, "got so hao xiao ar?" lol. and they just kept on laughing. lol. but now, i tell cold jokes no one entertain me also. lol. onli i'm the one keep laughing. esp my sis, i everytime tell her jokes, she will ask me back, "hen hao xiao meh." and i'll onli be the one laughing. lol. miss them a lot a lot.

you're the reason ;
6:35 PM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

lol. i've been blogging abt strange and weird news around the world for the past 2 days and yes, it's another piece of weird news. lol.

why did i put a squirrel de photo? lol. coz it's abt squirrels this time, and no, it's not coz the squirrel da bian is used to make souvenirs. lol. but squirrel so cute, its da bian make into souvenirs also will veri cute de ba. LOL.

anw. in finland, they've recently caught squirrel thief. lol. and mayb u would be thinking it stole nuts from the store. BUT it actually got caught for stealing kinder surprise eggs. those kind where u eat finish the chocolate le den inside got toys de. lol. den the squirrel will eat in the shop, in front of the shopowner den take the toy with it, leaving the wrapper behind.

so cute right. lol. but it's a bit careless lah. to steal in front of the shopowner den got caught. lol. but they did not punish it also. lol.

hmm. nothing to blog abt recently also. life is just so so ba. things happen and ppl give reactions. and, i've given up trying to pry into things that i dun even have the right to ask. so i'm just going to keep quiet. i'm giving up.

you're the reason ;
4:38 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

cute mah? cute right. lol. it's PANDA. just read a piece of news and i found it real funny. lol. dunno whether u all got hear before anot. but beijing has to spend large amounts of $$ to dispose of the shit (or dabian) of all these pandas. then, one day, they decided to use all these dabian to make something. so since olympic games coming, they made SOUVENIRS out of it. lol. i see le. stunned. den they added at the end of the news that they planning to make statues of panda out of these dabian. LOL. i was practically laughing at the comp screen.

you're the reason ;
11:59 PM